I am better now.  Really.
I have been going round and round with Instructables, trying to publish, then to realize something: I really can't tell much about how I built my toys.
Here is the rub: I can't always tell you how I made something.  Not right away.  Not all at once.
When I am working, I go a little aphasic.  I lose the ability to speak or understand much of what is said to me.  Not the hyper-focus 'did-not-hear-you-too-busy' but loss of language skills in general!
This makes it hard to remember what I did, or in what sequence.
Forming memories is largely the storing of symbols to act as Indexes for images/sounds/feeling of memory.
Without being verbal, I can't form verbal memories of what my hands do!
The other bit is Muscle-memory.  We all have something we do that is so ingrained it doesn't even register in our thoughts that we are doing it.  Walking, for example.  Ever think about every muscle involved?  QWOP is hard, try it with 30 keys...
I do LOTS of different tasks in the Projects I work on.  Drilling, tapping, soldering, cutting, bending...you get the idea.  I have a large 'library' of simple tasks that I can perform while thinking of the next thing to do.  And that slips memory even more.  I remember thinking about the design/build process and how it evolves, but "How I soldered this part to the other part" is gone.  I can re-construct how "I must have done it this way!", but often the living memory of how I did some bit of work is just gone.
And that makes me a poor candidate for presenting stuff.
I can show off pretty pictures of what I made, and there are some 'progress' photos, but nothing from the times I am actually working.  Hands too busy, Camera in the way...
Ugh.